| | {summer love}
yesterday, i spent the afternoon at the beach, ALONE!
the last time that happened was ... never!!
and.it.was.glorious.
after a busy 2 weeks of daycamp for the kids.
late nights. early mornings.
we decided to skip church and go to the beach together instead.
because sometimes, the best kind of worship is reconnecting as a family.
if you know what i mean.
so. we packed up, headed out.
stopping for a box of doughnuts on our way.
cause there's nothing like breakfast on the beach!
and cause, breakfast or not, we just like doughnuts!
a few hours after getting there, shayne got a text that had him having to head home...
and kate was needing to be at church by four for daycamp parents night...
and the little girls were starting to get cranky, getting close to nap time.
so, though earlier than planned, we thought it best to go on back.
i was folding up all the towels when shayne said..
"why don't you just stay."
i stopped for a minute. "really?"
then quickly. "oh, no...
it'll be less chaotic if i just come."
"no. it's fine."
"but you'll have to come all the way back out to get me."
he smiled. "i know."
at that moment i think the wind blew and the sun hit just so against my face..
that wonderful mixture of warmth and coolness at the same time that seems to happen only at the beach.
and i caved. "okay then. i'll stay."
once he and the kids were gone i admit i felt a little giddy/ stupid.
not sure what to do first.
so i did it all. one after the other. and then again. full circle...
read a magazine from cover to cover. {the 2nd time i just looked at pics}
drank my glass of sweet tea, before all the ice melted.
ate chocolate covered raisins.{and shared with no one!!}
laid on my blue {not a speck of sand on it} blanket and read.
and finally, after about the 5th or 6th time, stopped looking up when i heard someone call, "mommy?" ;)
then, dosed off. then went for a swim.
i swam alone. and floated in the waves.
watching people. and the paddle boarders. and sailboats in the distance.
i laid back into the water, looking up at the smears of clouds across the perfect blue sky.
thanking God for that kind of beauty.
and the beauty of aloneness like that.
and the beauty of a husband that notices when i need that.
who offers, without me having to ask.
honeymoon- first beach trip together
and then my mind went to him..
as the waves washed over me.
thinking of all the waves we've faced together.
nearly drowning by some.
but.. feeling lately, and finally {and only by His grace},
that we're coming to a place of rhythm again.
you have to do that riding the waves.
you can't fight them. you must lean back and surrender.
when i shut my eyes just now. i can still feel the motion of water all around me.
that feeling of gratitude and rejuvenation.
you live long on an afternoon like that!
how do you refuel~ alone or with people?
i read a survey recently that said if you refuel by being with people, you're an extrovert.
and if you refuel by being alone, you're an introvert.
i felt i was a bit of both-
kinda depends on what kind of refueling i need.
i wonder if there's a category for the intro/extro-vert mixes?
yeah. wack jobs!! ;) ha.
haPpy monday everyone!!
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